The Wanna-Believer

Today I pray for the first time,
As a wanna-believer,
For a taste of life’s colorful palette;
To feel your love, your acceptance;
To accept that I’m worthy of your forgiveness.

Today I pray for the first time,
Maybe not with belief, but with want;
A wanting too deep to be filled alone;
Too wide to be crossed in this world;
So I seek a higher passage.

Today I pray for the first time,
Welcoming your presence;
Not needing to understand;
Eyes shut so that I might see;
Heart open so that I might feel.

Today I pray for the first time,
To accept that I cannot change without help;
For the courage to receive your hand,
And find peace through your wisdom;
Amen.

Be well,

Monty

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