This Night

This started off as a Golden Shovel using Mary Oliver’s beautiful poem entitled “This Morning”, but morphed into something different yet still very much inspired by the original.

And just like that, like a simple neighborhood event, a miracle is taking place.

“This Morning” by Mary Oliver

This Night

Inspired by Mary Oliver’s “This Morning”

This night will end in mourning
The black and blue sky will bleed into red
The dark silence broken by willow’s weeping and
Birds singing longingly for some soul food.

This night will end and
I don’t know how to begin again.
Where are the answers to be found
When even the moon has lost its way?

This night will be no more, no more,
I call out in prayer, as if I believe, to anyone
That will listen to my cries;
What else can I do?

This night will end and
Nobody has answered yet;
Have their eyes not opened?
Or is it my eyes that are closed?

This night will end with
The impatient sun taking the sky;
A thousand, million stars fading;
And I’m still without wings.

This night will end in morning
And despite not knowing how,
I will begin again; simple,
And just like that a miracle is taking place.

Be well,

Monty

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• Blue Heron
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• Endure Me
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• Departing
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• Scenes from Today
  These are untouched photographs from today’s walk on Bainbridge Island, Washington (just applied a simple frame). Be well, Monty
• Perched in the Moonlight
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• Playing with Time
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• How Did I Get to This Beautiful Place?
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• Birds in Flight
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• Rising Sun
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• Forest Moon
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• Blessed
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• Snowy Scene
  Happy snow day! Be well, Monty
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• A Return to Patterns
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• Today
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• Shine On
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• A Test of the Heart
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• An Observation and a Query
  A fly walks by. S t r e t c h i n g Its legs, I guess? Be well, Monty
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• Mired in Mud
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• Let Me Be (Note to Self)
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• Poetic License
  I applied for my poetic license today;It was rejected due to a grammatical error.Oh, The irony. Be well, Monty
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