I’ve No Words


I’ve no words ugly enough.
I open my mouth and silence spews out.
I write wildly upon the page in blank scrawls.
A supposed writer, poet even, yet
I’ve no words.

They told me He would listen with understanding.
That He would love me.
Forgive me.
But what if all I can do is cry in shame?
What if I’ve no words?

Will He understand my silence?
My pages, empty
But for the stains of tears?
How can I confess if
I’ve no words?


Be well,

Monty


16 Comments

  1. Catherine says:

    “How can I confess if I’ve no words” wow!

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      1. Catherine says:

        You have a way with words 🥰

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      2. Monty Vern says:

        Ironically! Haha. But seriously, thank you 🙏

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      3. Catherine says:

        I know… When there are no words, the few we have are impactful 😊

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  2. Aw Monty, I hope this isn’t some true emotion you are feeling, and if it is, I am sorry that you’re feeling it!

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    1. Monty Vern says:

      It’s very true. I’ve been attending a spiritual fellowship as an experiment and it’s brining up some interesting feelings.

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      1. Awww I’m sorry that its bringing up those feelings. I hope that its beneficial in the end even if it is painful right now

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      2. Monty Vern says:

        I think it’s positive overall. Thanks!

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  3. murisopsis says:

    The raw emotion in this one is startling and gives the poem an edge. Wonderful exploration of what a confession can be with or without words… Often actions speak louder!

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  4. Remember you confess to God, not others. He knows what’s unspoken. Bless You!

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  5. The God I know and love, and who I know loves me, is comfortable with our silences. To not just know, but to actually let ourselves be loved as we are seems like it should/would be easy, but it’s not always!

    I also want to say, Monty, that I’ve adopted your idea of intentions rather than goals. I’ve made an intention to walk the trail near my house 2-3 times a week, as it encourages me to take a longer walk. 🙂

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    1. Monty Vern says:

      Thanks for sharing your perspective and reminding me of my intentions!!! I needed it. Glad to hear it’s working for you too 🙂

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  6. I think I can relate. I’ve noticed that recently with myself, too. Whenever I try to ponder some questions while trying to talk to Him, I seem to have no words to say. The first thing that comes to mind is – well, He knows what’s in my heart and in my soul and in my mind. And that IS true. However, I find that being able to find the words helps ME. Unless you bring those words forward, it might be hard for you to heal and move forward. Crying can be a good start. Shame is good, too, as you acknowledge your brokenness. But you need to be able to move from those loud but mute feelings.

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    1. Monty Vern says:

      Thanks for sharing. I appreciate the company.

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