Morning Cocktail
3 parts Zoloft
1 part Abilify
Mix meditatively and pray for help with my unbelief
Dilute to taste and swallow (along with my pride)
Assume Peaceful Warrior position
Accept the things I cannot change
Open my heart to receive YOU’RE help
Add one mug of dark bold coffee, black
“WE’VE got this!”
Be well,
Monty

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Not sure you intended but love the word “ability” combining ability with vilify,
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Abilify!!!
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Haha. No. It’s just the name of the medication. I wish I’d thought of that though.
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Monty, I hope your morning cocktail helps. As for swallowing pride – I believe you are a little mistaken… there is no shame in recalibrating the brain’s chemicals… just as I have to take a thyroid medication to supplement my thyroid’s lazy production of the hormone. It isn’t a failure of personality or a deficiency of character – just an adjustment of function… ❤
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First, rationally, I 100% agree with you regarding the medication. Brain chemistry is not different from any other body chemistry and there is nothing wrong with using medication to make the necessary adjustments. However, emotionally, I do deal with pridefulness around the idea that I should be able to “do it myself” – this applies to both taking medication and asking for help/prayer. So, whether rational or not, emotionally I am swallowing my pride. This is why its so important for me to write in first person (I originally wrote this poem in 2nd person and it just didn’t feel right). I love that this generated some dialogue on this topic though. It’s important.
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Sounds like a good start to the morning. Do what we can, and then get help for what we can’t do on our own.
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