May Third. It just looks cooler in Chinese characters.
I was about to write that the sun is shining but a cloud just interrupted my train of thought. I got out to an early morning walk and am now sitting outside in the garden (under an intermittent sun). To state the obvious, I’m writing again. This time to pop music. Whatever Spotify throws at me.
Benson Boon sings about being afraid of losing someone’s love (“Beautiful Things”). It’s a beautiful song. Catchy. But also sad. For many years I lived a marriage where I was always afraid of losing my partner. I lived in fear. Insecure. Scared to be myself and express my feelings openly. It led me to have a lot of underlying resentment. And to a broken marriage where I almost did lose her. Today, I’m grateful that ‘we broke’ only because it helped us get back together in a much stronger and more honest and open relationship. I certainly feel regret and guilt over some of the things that I did during those broken times. I’ll never forgive myself (nor do I believe I should), but I do accept myself for who I am and all I’ve done. And I can say my love is more true and powerful than ever. I’m blessed.
Be well,
Monty
Monty’s Blahg 
A bone broken heals stronger, a broken heart takes longer to heal but the scars make for a more mature love… I’m so glad that your marriage is stronger than ever! As for forgiveness – forgiving ourselves is much harder than forgiving others. But forgiveness is not the same as forgetting…
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Ahh the wisdom of age and experience. Don’t you wish you could bottle it and sell it to the young?
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Haha. If they would only listen!
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So true, Monty! Have a fabulous day!
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